Today Is A New Day
As my last post was a very negative one & after a weekend of constant sleeping, I wanted to try the new day & new week being a more positive. Trying to stay positive with Fibro, believe me can be a challenge in itself, pain & the constantly feeling unwell brings you down so much. Every morning when you wake up, you would just like to wake up without something really hurting or being a massive struggle to just get out of bed. Well today, I have actually stayed awake for more than an hour, so this is a great start to the day, I’m not pain free but not as much pain as I was over the weekend. Though they are small changes, they are triumphs over what has been and I’m so very grateful for that.
I have decided to the gratitude attitude, everyday I will wake up and find three things to be grateful for, then in the evening before I go to sleep, I will find three more things to be grateful about my day, no matter how small that they may seem to you, they will be great positivities to me. I am going to try and do this for the whole of this week at first, then write down how different I feel at the end of the week. I want to turn this negativity, that seems to have consumed me of late, around to allow my moods to come back up so I can hopefully feel better emotionally and this may also have a positive affect of my health.
So today…I have stayed awake for more than an hour, I went down stairs and made a cup of tea for myself and I have spoken to my best friend, who I haven’t spoken to for at least 4/5 days…those three things are what I am grateful for today.
I might even enter some competitions today if I stay awake long enough lol I’m not sure if I mentioned why I enter comps (Fibro brain) you know it’s always nice to win but mainly for me, if I am concentrating on entering comps, it takes my mind off my pain. It also can keep my mind active however it can also drain my brain power some days. I am going to try and pace myself even doing this activity as I think it was also bringing me down, not winning sucks lol but it was causing me stress and this was also draining me mind and body.
I am still waiting to hear from the hospital about my Liver but I’m not going to let it stress me as much as it was, I had visions of me on dialysis, needing a new liver as so on, he had mentioned my pancreas, so I got all worried about cancer, which made me worse. So I am just going to try and put it out of my mind for now until I get to see the specialist and what the scan shows up, they will be checking my Liver, Kidneys and Pancreas for any signs of damage, hopefully it will be nothing too serious or it can be treated quickly.
So to all my lovely followers and Fibro friends, I know it is really hard trying to stay positive, each and every day is different for each of us but for today…I’m choosing to have a positive day and hopefully a positive week…sending you all love and gentle hugs xxx